A Prayer of Fear and Bereavement

I know not why this grief has come upon me,
But I know You are good.

I know not what tomorrow brings,
But I know You are sovereign.

I know not why Your presence feels absent,
But I know You are with me.

I know not how my weakness can do Your will,
But I know You are working through me.

I know not how to feel Your life and mirth,
But I know I am Your son.

I know not why my sins have been forgiven,
But I know Your arms are open.

I know not how to be free from comparison,
But I know I find rest with You.

I know not how I will carry on,
But I know You will keep me.

I know not why my heart scoffs at Your Truth,
But I know You rose again.

I know not why I run from the love of others,
But I know I have been established in community.

I know not how to love Your Word,
But I know it is my medicine.

I know not why the thought of You causes pain,
But I know I have been clothed.

I know not how to stop weeping,
But I know my tears are temporary.

I know not how this tragedy can be redeemed,
But I know that everything You do is good,
And everything You allow is for our good.

Therefore I am thankful to You,
And I praise You.