Court Proceedings

The Accuser has found my weakness—pride of thinking. He tells me, “You are not wise. You are unlearned. You know nothing. You do not love Jesus; you love being correct. You have no understanding. No one should respect you. Your ministry will not last. Your foundations are not solid. You have no faith. You have arbitrary beliefs. When asked, you cannot justify what you think. You have no knowledge. You are just guessing. You are stupid. Only fools will listen to your words, because they cannot recognize what is not valuable. You are only guided by your emotions, not your knowledge of God. You can fake it with some people, but the theologically educated can see past your facade of a Christian mind to a scared boy who should not be put in a position of authority. You are not moved by the right things. Your emotions are not set to praise Him. Your heart is cold. Your heart is not alive. You do not care about what makes other people happy. You are still so immature as to care what people think of you, and you will never change. Your destiny is not to give strength, but to be a quiet leech on the strength of others. Only fools find you helpful. You don’t live with grace and forgiveness, but stale duty and meaningless virtue. You have lost your humanity. To ask for honor is folly, for honor is not fitting for a fool. You argue with everything because you believe nothing. You do not love orthodoxy. You do not love Scripture. In your heart, you want to be a heretic. You worship the idol of science. Your heart is modern, with all its unbelief. Your heart is in the world. You have abandoned your heritage. You trust things that do not profit. You trust the wrong words. You cannot recognize wise words. You cannot speak wise words. You have delved past your ability. You should give up thinking. You are nothing but a simpleton. You will never be a leader. You are not worth listening to. Your voice makes no difference. Your voice is worthless. Your voice is worthless. Your voice is worthless. Your voice is worthless. Your voice is worthless. Your voice is worthless. Your voice is worthless. Your voice is worthless. Your voice is worthless. Your voice is worthless. Your voice is worthless. Your voice is worthless. Your voice is worthless. Your voice is worthless. Your voice is worthless. Your voice is worthless. Your voice is worthless. Your voice is worthless. Your voice is worthless. Your voice is worthless. Your voice is worthless. Your voice is worthless.” And my back breaks. Continue reading “Court Proceedings”

Reflections on Change, and, Sexual Sin and Idolatry

My time at Clemson University has recently come to an end. I’m sad to leave the community that I love, that led me into the man that I am now, and that will never exist in the same way again. I am apprehensive about readjusting my perception of myself, and re-understanding my place in the world. My entire life I have been a student—no longer. Sure, I will always be a student in the deepest sense, but that is not my career anymore. I am switching careers. Now, I will be a software engineer that specializes in web technology.

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Wisdom of the Moderns: The Conquering of Doubt

In Charles Sanders Peirce’s essay, “The Fixation of Belief,” Peirce gives a defense of the scientific method. He does this by exploring four methods which people have used and continue to use in order to expel doubt from their minds. Interestingly, the goal of his methods is not to find the truth, but specifically to remove the discomfort of being unsure of what one believes. He notes that this is possible to do with or without the truth. The four methods he discusses are the tenacity method, the authority method, the a priori method, and the scientific method. He discusses the benefits and problems with each method, and ultimately concludes that the scientific method is the strongest.

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